2024 showed up with her boxing gloves on and fists a-swingin'!
It's been a rough start to the new year and it's taken me this long to really wrap my brain around all that's happened so far.
Eric and I both lost family members this year too, adding even more heartbreak onto already severely broken hearts.
And 2024 still wasn't done throwing her punches.
My husband and I spent the entire last half of last year apart - him in Korea, me in Kansas - in anticipation of him coming back for five months and me following him back to Korea at the end of the school year (no one has ever said that Army life makes sense). Eric and I are no strangers to life's changes, we have become very good at adapting, but when the Army decided that I wasn't going to be able to move to Korea, we had to pivot so majorly (in the midst of all that we were already going through) that we still haven't settled into all of the changes that came with that decision yet.
Within weeks of Journey's passing, Eric lost a family member, the Army made their decision, we ended our RV adventures, moved me into an apartment, renewed my contract at my school, Eric graduated from his course, then he left for Korea (without me), then I lost a family member.
To say that life was hard on us the last few months and that our hearts are broken... would be an understatement.
Even though we have a lot of experience adapting to life's curves, that doesn't make all curves or changes (however you want to word it) easy to adapt to. Sometimes... life hurts.
We WILL make the most of the situation we are in... we always do... but right now, we're in the suck of it. We miss each other unbearably. We needed time to decompress and be sad and settle our souls from so many different things that happened all at the same time.
But anywho... that's the gist of how 2024 has panned out for us so far. If you're on my Christmas card list (and y'all know how much I love Christmas cards), our address will stay the same this year. Next year will be a different story as it is a PCS year for us, and PCS's always come with a whole lot of change. We don't know where to yet, but let's just sweetly let whatever is in store for us sit out there until it's time to face it... I need 2025 to be sweet back and I'm not trying to piss off the Universe a year too soon by complaining about something that doesn't exist yet.
So yeah, that's the gist of everything so far. I'll be back at the end of the summer with a better, more joyful blog post. I'm begging 2024 to put her gloves down for at least that long.
*With the state of the world being what it is, some of the sentences that I have written, in re-reading them, have made me pause on posting this. While our experiences these last few months are real and have been very difficult, I know, and I want you all to know, that the problems I face, the things I write about, are first world things and cannot EVER compare to the horrific suffering in the Gaza-Israel Conflict. Here are ways to help: https://www.un.org/en/situation-in-occupied-palestine-and-israel/donate and/or https://www.icrc.org/en
Sounds like 2024 (so far) has been just as bad as 2022/2023 was for me. It always seems like horrible things happen in multiples. I hope the rest of this year will be kind to you and that new, fun adventures await in 2025. My condolences on your losses!
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